What if I woke up tomorrow and didn’t love you anymore?
Would you understand why?
Would you ask?
Do you care?
What if I woke up and didn’t love you anymore? Would it seem fair?
What if I woke up and didn’t love you anymore?
Would you search your mind for reasons?
Would you ask if you’ve been deceiving?
Do you remember all the times you gave no reasons?
What if I woke up and didn’t love you anymore?
Accountabilities left unaccounted for heartfelt pleading for answers for~
The inconsistencies that have lead to decisions made
Hearts left broken force feeding your game of charades
What if I told you I didn’t love you anymore?
Unable to feel you, don’t want to feel you
Sick from the thought of your hands on my body
Can’t imagine another minute mixed into your need for variety
What if I told you I’d never love you again?
I can’t continue to pretend that you haven’t committed the ultimate sin
That all that you’ve said, my toned deaf ears can’t lend
Another sound from your voice; just can’t comprehend
What if I told you that you no longer deserved another minute of my time?
That the disillusioned one left was you and that what you were talking was prime
B.S. for lack of a better word; save your breathe you sound absurd
Give it a break cause I’ve broke from you
Pull yourself together because there is absolutely nothing else you can say or do
What if I told you that I told you so?
Green grass is always dirt underneath, not properly fertilized grass on the bottoms of your feet
Thinking I should let you track your muddy conclusions all over my manicured lawn
Weeds in your hair, parasites beneath your skin, smelling like a hot mess, rolling on lawns picking up elements that my lawn doesn’t don
What if I told you to make good with your decision?
Rub your nose between your toes and inhale what you’ve chose
Twenty to your eighty? Ten to your ninety? So sorry, zero to your 100%
Tyler Perry said it best but you’ve failed all tests, can’t even confess in the midst of your mess
What if I told you it was definitely over?
I loved loving you while I loved you but love is no longer here for you
Your choices have made my choices, decisions and outcomes
Effects or your affections have crossed over and it’s over and so are we
What if I woke up tomorrow and STILL loved you?
Opportunity to do right, change life, focus tight and fight for us
Relevant and unpredictable love efforts ignite mundane realities
Real love, if you love me, true love, if you love me, the only love
IS THE ONLY WAY TO LOVE ME!
I woke up today and I still love you…it’s your decision about tomorrow…
The choice to cheat and how varies from relationship to relationship. What constitutes cheating in one relationship may not be a violation in another.
Once the trust factor has been bulldozed over, it’s hard to get that back. It doesn’t matter how much you truly want to forgive your partner. Will you ever feel comfortable when their phone rings or a text message comes through, if they’d cheated and you’d heard a message or saw numbers? Would you not get a twinge when your partner was going out with their friends, if they had been unfaithful? Would you ever trust them farther than you could see them because they had cheated?
Recovery, after being cheated on, is long and frustrating. It’s not impossible to regain the purity of your relationship but it is a journey. Not cheating, of course, is always the better choice. If you are not happy in your relationship and feel like you want to go outside of it, communication is best and should always be first.
Give your partner the opportunity to choose what they want regarding leaving or staying. You never know, your partner may be a swinger and in that respect, your needs would be met. You never know unless you communicate your true needs.
The poem above signifies options and choices; the aftermath of a cheating partner, but by the end another chance to reevaluate one’s choice. In today’s society, cheating is almost second nature. I believe that so many people find partners who meet their fundamental qualifications for a life partner and hence utilize that person as their “main” partner.
However, not truly satisfied, the adrenaline-rushing partner who has no ties to life’s ups and downs, enters the picture and is that piece on the side. It’s the fun person, the pressure-less person. This person only wants some time but nothing that will give the straying partner a headache; the jump-off. If there is love within your relationship and communication, your partner has already been the jump-off in your life and could forever be that. But you haven’t taken the time or energy to jump start anything. Before you cheat, take a second and think about what you would be doing to your partner, your life and your relationship. Although the initial sex may be good, what you are giving up ain’t worth a few minutes of sex.
Angela Ardis is the author of “Inside a Thug’s Heart,” “My Mind’s Poetry” and the upcoming “The Block.” To contact her visit www.Angela Ardis.com or send emails to: info@AngelaArdis.com
